Movie Stars and Gossip
Motherhood was a calling Beyonc heard loud and clear.
While in labor with her first child, the songstress formed an instantaneous bond, an experience that was music to the mom-to-be’s ears.
“I felt like when I was having contractions, I envisioned my child pushing through a very heavy door,” Beyonc , 31, recalls in Vogue‘s March issue.
“And I imagined this tiny infant doing all the work, so I couldn’t think about my own pain. We were talking. I know it sounds crazy, but I felt a communication.”
Surrounded by close family and friends — including husband Jay-Z — for the birth of Blue Ivy, Beyonc managed to find strength in her support system, allowing her to embrace the moment … and the pain.
“Everything that scared me just was not present in that room,” she explains. “So for me to really let go and really appreciate every contraction … it was the best day of my life.”
Now the proud mama of a 13-month-old daughter — who she calls her “road dog,” “homey,” “my best friend” — says life has new meaning. “I feel like I have something that has grounded me so much more.”
The star also opens up about her life in her upcoming HBO documentary, Life Is But a Dream, which premieres Saturday, and she addresses the rumors surrounding her pregnancy.
“That was very odd. Who even thinks that?” Beyonc says of the speculation that she used a surrogate. “Like, who would make that up … You can’t take it too seriously.”
Instead, the working mama is focusing her attention on finding the fine balance between her personal and professional lives as she plans her upcoming tour with plenty of downtime built in to spend with Blue.
While the tight-knit trio gear up for life on the road, the proud parents hope that, one day, they can give their baby girl a chance at a normal childhood.
“At some point it’s very important to me that my daughter is able to experience life and run through the sprinklers and have slumber parties and trust and live and do all the things that any child should be able to do,” Beyonc says.
“School visits and lemonade stands and all that stuff. It’s very important to me,” she adds.
But a more laidback lifestyle with her little girl isn’t the only thing Beyonc is looking forward to. Eventually, she and Jay-Z are hoping to make Blue a big sister.
“When I was younger, there were moments when I said, ‘I’m not going to have children,’” she recalls. “And then moments when I wanted four. And now I definitely want another, but I don’t know when.”
– Anya Leon